I have intentionally neglected my blog for the final duration of my...finals. Hehehe. The exam season was like a PMS on itself.
You either have an increase or decrease of appetite, mood swings, and aggitation. The symptoms are the same, don't you think?
Anyway, like all exams, the thing we look forward to the most would be the after-exams 'activities'. I've considered going to the movies finally, and even clean the house and stuff. So far I haven't done any of them, except to pig out XD. Eating is good.
Exam was like hell to me. I hated it. I messed up so many questions. But that's all in the past :D.
I remember thinking how deprived I am of a good holiday not long ago. And now suddenly I'll be having an extended Singapore trip. See, I have to accompany a couple of friends to Singapore on the 6-8 December. But I already palnned to go to Singapore on the 9th to 14th with my family. And in the end I'll on go home by the 18th T_T.
I'll have less than a month to spend groping Kujong! D: And then I have to clean my room for imminent renovations. Though this time I'm taking Kujong with me when I go abck to KL. I learned my lesson the hard way when Ii left my ps1 at the TV room during renovations. My stupid wretched brother threw away my memory cards! Grrr
Anyway! Leaving it on its own for so long leaves it open for abuse too and people are always looking to abuse my stuff *Glares*. I mean, I know I have all the coolest stuff, but please you know, stuff has owners too!
Heh...I'm looking forward to my christmas celebration. Sweets abound!!
Ta'ra!
Friday, November 30, 2007
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Strictly My Observation
Despite the odds, I went and watched Stardust. And what luck too. I saw there was no more showing time today. Next I will watch Bee Movie and something else, if I have enough will to.
Anyway, I was studying SBM and just one paragraph into I was already yawning. Made worse by the thought of the cangkul lecturer who teaches the subject. I heard he received so many complaints this sem he was given a three months temination notice. Woo hoo! I hope he leaves in shame! Let justice be done.
This is the next paper, on Monday, and then I have Marketing the next day. Same subject title as the one I studied in Foundation, but 70% of the contents are more in depth. The problem with this subject is probably not the subject itself. It's fine as long as you study enough for it. No. The real problem is the lecturer who is a self-proclaim bias. He's a Bangla, hates Celcom, likes to tease (taunt) students from smaller countries , very lenient towards Bangla students and has a thing against not being able to be bias against Malay students (now that I think about it, the cangkul lecturer was also bias against us). It's as if he can't afford to be bias against us, even though in reality he's not that fond of us. Luckily for him, real Malays in the class are about...2 or 3 people, including me. The others are Sabah natives and they are obviously not Malays. And a host of foreign students.
Honestly, I would be more glad if he'd just go ahead and admit it. Bangla lecturers are one of a kind. They are proud of their race (I wonder why?). Let me give you an example.
The stats lecturer in my first sem was a Bangla. During a mid-term, he caught another Bangla student cheating (even tho it actually became 'open discussion' once he left the classroom in the middle of the test). And as that Bangla student was passing up his paper, we all witnessed him scolding the student and refusing to accept his paper because he cheated. So naturally, he failed.
So is it possible for someone who failed their mid-term to have an A for stats at the end of the semester but either failed, and were absent for the other subjects?
Man, was I glad not to see both teacher and student in the next semester.
I am not trying to imply them as racists, but my Econs lecturer was Bangla too and he ignored me in class a lot too. It pissed me off because I was the only one who knew the answers to his questions yet he insisted on asking those dark-skinned students first, regardless if they were Banglas or not. Geez if you ask me, looking at their 'condition' they can't afford to be racist.
I mean, I could understand if you want to be proud if you were Chinanese or Caucasian. At least those people had something they can be proud of. But Banglas!? Other than stinking up our busses and spitting on our sidewalks, what other noticable contributions can they be credited for? (Of course, general labour issues aside) And I have honestly approached this matter objectively, but as the evidences are basically splattered to my face, I would have to be completely blind to miss it!
Makes me so mad.
Once I went completely mad at this one Bangla student in our group. His English sucked and he handed me his 'interpretation' of his part of the assignment. I threw it back in his face (not literally but I wish it was) and gave him a big piece of my mind about it. He wanted to counter back but was more concerned about playing the 'nice guy' so he shut up and I ended up doing his part. I told him he'd better memorize the script I gave him or he's got another one coming the next day.
And during presentation, he froze. He was mechanical, but the worse was that he's reading.
I gave him the Death Glare™ right then and there. Didn't help of course, but I wasn't expecting him to improve anyway.
Little did I know he was the Marketing lecturer's housemate and he had whined to him how our presentation was 'funny' and stuff. The lecturer told him the presentation was unacceptable and he threw that back at us so I threw it back at him + Death Glare™ + a BIG piece of my mind + a correction of his grammar + an insult to his 'kewl' way of typing = A devastating blow to his ego.
Beware the Death Glare™. I often use it on cangkuls and towards people I'm really pissed at. It's convenient coz I don't have to say a word.
Either way, I am never associating with Banglas again. They can go the way of the lamers, who I'm afraid is studying hard this sem. But they still haven't realized their own shortcomings it seems. And until they realize what it is, they will never be better than me. Look at my pride talking again. Even if, by some strange twist of fate, they did, get better than me, in real life they will probably never go far.
Therefore, I must not lose to the lamers, the Banglas and the cangkuls. They can just drop dead and die. I'm repeating myself, I know. But better safe than sorry. These people are just wasting oxygen.
Ta'ra. *Goes away in a huff*
Anyway, I was studying SBM and just one paragraph into I was already yawning. Made worse by the thought of the cangkul lecturer who teaches the subject. I heard he received so many complaints this sem he was given a three months temination notice. Woo hoo! I hope he leaves in shame! Let justice be done.
This is the next paper, on Monday, and then I have Marketing the next day. Same subject title as the one I studied in Foundation, but 70% of the contents are more in depth. The problem with this subject is probably not the subject itself. It's fine as long as you study enough for it. No. The real problem is the lecturer who is a self-proclaim bias. He's a Bangla, hates Celcom, likes to tease (taunt) students from smaller countries , very lenient towards Bangla students and has a thing against not being able to be bias against Malay students (now that I think about it, the cangkul lecturer was also bias against us). It's as if he can't afford to be bias against us, even though in reality he's not that fond of us. Luckily for him, real Malays in the class are about...2 or 3 people, including me. The others are Sabah natives and they are obviously not Malays. And a host of foreign students.
Honestly, I would be more glad if he'd just go ahead and admit it. Bangla lecturers are one of a kind. They are proud of their race (I wonder why?). Let me give you an example.
The stats lecturer in my first sem was a Bangla. During a mid-term, he caught another Bangla student cheating (even tho it actually became 'open discussion' once he left the classroom in the middle of the test). And as that Bangla student was passing up his paper, we all witnessed him scolding the student and refusing to accept his paper because he cheated. So naturally, he failed.
So is it possible for someone who failed their mid-term to have an A for stats at the end of the semester but either failed, and were absent for the other subjects?
Man, was I glad not to see both teacher and student in the next semester.
I am not trying to imply them as racists, but my Econs lecturer was Bangla too and he ignored me in class a lot too. It pissed me off because I was the only one who knew the answers to his questions yet he insisted on asking those dark-skinned students first, regardless if they were Banglas or not. Geez if you ask me, looking at their 'condition' they can't afford to be racist.
I mean, I could understand if you want to be proud if you were Chinanese or Caucasian. At least those people had something they can be proud of. But Banglas!? Other than stinking up our busses and spitting on our sidewalks, what other noticable contributions can they be credited for? (Of course, general labour issues aside) And I have honestly approached this matter objectively, but as the evidences are basically splattered to my face, I would have to be completely blind to miss it!
Makes me so mad.
Once I went completely mad at this one Bangla student in our group. His English sucked and he handed me his 'interpretation' of his part of the assignment. I threw it back in his face (not literally but I wish it was) and gave him a big piece of my mind about it. He wanted to counter back but was more concerned about playing the 'nice guy' so he shut up and I ended up doing his part. I told him he'd better memorize the script I gave him or he's got another one coming the next day.
And during presentation, he froze. He was mechanical, but the worse was that he's reading.
I gave him the Death Glare™ right then and there. Didn't help of course, but I wasn't expecting him to improve anyway.
Little did I know he was the Marketing lecturer's housemate and he had whined to him how our presentation was 'funny' and stuff. The lecturer told him the presentation was unacceptable and he threw that back at us so I threw it back at him + Death Glare™ + a BIG piece of my mind + a correction of his grammar + an insult to his 'kewl' way of typing = A devastating blow to his ego.
Beware the Death Glare™. I often use it on cangkuls and towards people I'm really pissed at. It's convenient coz I don't have to say a word.
Either way, I am never associating with Banglas again. They can go the way of the lamers, who I'm afraid is studying hard this sem. But they still haven't realized their own shortcomings it seems. And until they realize what it is, they will never be better than me. Look at my pride talking again. Even if, by some strange twist of fate, they did, get better than me, in real life they will probably never go far.
Therefore, I must not lose to the lamers, the Banglas and the cangkuls. They can just drop dead and die. I'm repeating myself, I know. But better safe than sorry. These people are just wasting oxygen.
Ta'ra. *Goes away in a huff*
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Another Leg
Yes, another leg of my exam starts. Yesterday's pyschology was...well, no comment. You should never trusts a rookie lecturer's tips you know.
Anyway, you wouldn't believe what I've been fixated on these days. Okay I'll tell you.
DISNEY CHANNEL.
Yeah you read right. I've been watching a lot of Disney Channels. I need my daily dose of cartoons too you know. And unlike animes you don't have to be too opinionated to watch them. I mean, they are on Disney Channel. It's as general as general viewing gets.
So everyday I would be in front of the TV starting from 3:30 pm because that's when Martin Mystery is on. I like Martin Mystery. The art maybe pseudo-anime, like Team Galaxy and Totally Spies, but who cares. I don't think it would be tolerable any other way. I mean, what's not to like about a pair of siblings who work for a secret inter-galactical organization and studies in a castle-like building of a school?
Then Disney Channel has this thing called 'Power Hour 3' where they air three back to back episodes of a series in one hour. Yesterday was Shuriken School, another of my favorite series. It's fun watching a bunch of kids going to school learning about being a ninja. Add that and their interesting choice of weapons. A girl used CDs as shurikens and the main protagonist's main weapon was his trusty lime-colored plastic ruler. He used it as a sword, a crowbar, and boomering all at once. Instead of "drop your gun!", it's "drop your ruler!". I mean, how cool is that?!
In addition to that I also like Monster Allergies and the Suite Life of Zack and Cody! *grins*.
....
Exams need to finish quickly.
Ta'ra.
Anyway, you wouldn't believe what I've been fixated on these days. Okay I'll tell you.
DISNEY CHANNEL.
Yeah you read right. I've been watching a lot of Disney Channels. I need my daily dose of cartoons too you know. And unlike animes you don't have to be too opinionated to watch them. I mean, they are on Disney Channel. It's as general as general viewing gets.
So everyday I would be in front of the TV starting from 3:30 pm because that's when Martin Mystery is on. I like Martin Mystery. The art maybe pseudo-anime, like Team Galaxy and Totally Spies, but who cares. I don't think it would be tolerable any other way. I mean, what's not to like about a pair of siblings who work for a secret inter-galactical organization and studies in a castle-like building of a school?
Then Disney Channel has this thing called 'Power Hour 3' where they air three back to back episodes of a series in one hour. Yesterday was Shuriken School, another of my favorite series. It's fun watching a bunch of kids going to school learning about being a ninja. Add that and their interesting choice of weapons. A girl used CDs as shurikens and the main protagonist's main weapon was his trusty lime-colored plastic ruler. He used it as a sword, a crowbar, and boomering all at once. Instead of "drop your gun!", it's "drop your ruler!". I mean, how cool is that?!
In addition to that I also like Monster Allergies and the Suite Life of Zack and Cody! *grins*.
....
Exams need to finish quickly.
Ta'ra.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
In The Nick of Time
I finished my Psychology ass and it's not even midnight yet! Now I have time to spare to study for the exam tomorrow hehehehe! I was really stressed out when I first started it. The only comfort I found is that this ass only needs about 2-3 pages, just one case, summerize it and double spacing.
I mean, how hard can it be right?
Not until I went around searching for the appropriate case. Finally, I found one on memory. Repressed Memory, to be precise. I found an article from March 1995 and found it to be interesting. I mean, how often do people talk in lenght about psychology cases without using too much idioms anyway? Of course, repressed memory is not something acceptable in psychology anymore, following so many controversies, scandals and revoked licenses. Either way, I understood it and managed to make one out of my own understanding (no matter how warped it may be). Therefore, I am proud of myself!
So at the end of my ass, I used 1.5 spacing because double spacing is too big and I used a lot of one sentence paragraphs. Imagine how wide the gap is between that sentence and the following paragraph?
See, the reason I'm so happy with the completion of this ass is that, despite it being last minute, I managed to pull it together elegantly. That doesn't happen often you know, because I always procrastinate my assignments til late. Like, waaay late, as in, by the submission deadline of Saturday 1 pm, my work would be hot out of the printer at 12:59 pm. But that was when I was at the hostel. This sem, strangely enough, I didn't have an assignment I had to submit on Saturday. We seemed to have submitted all our assignments directly to the lecturers; A method I much preferred.
Anyway, yes I am happy. I will finish studying for the paper tonight and go to bed late, because I woke up at noon again today, despite my efforts to wake up earlier. I am considering going to the movies after my exam tomorrow. I've been calling up my classmates in my panic and they all seemed so easy-breezy telling me instead of studying they had just returned from the movies!
I figured it's about time I catch the Bee Movie. I almost forgot it was even in theatres. Or maybe I should catch Stardust first, since Bee Movie apparently still has a lot of playing times.
Oooh I should stop this and go right back to studying. I will not lose to the lamers!
I AM ON FIYAAA BABY!!
Ta'ra!
I mean, how hard can it be right?
Not until I went around searching for the appropriate case. Finally, I found one on memory. Repressed Memory, to be precise. I found an article from March 1995 and found it to be interesting. I mean, how often do people talk in lenght about psychology cases without using too much idioms anyway? Of course, repressed memory is not something acceptable in psychology anymore, following so many controversies, scandals and revoked licenses. Either way, I understood it and managed to make one out of my own understanding (no matter how warped it may be). Therefore, I am proud of myself!
So at the end of my ass, I used 1.5 spacing because double spacing is too big and I used a lot of one sentence paragraphs. Imagine how wide the gap is between that sentence and the following paragraph?
See, the reason I'm so happy with the completion of this ass is that, despite it being last minute, I managed to pull it together elegantly. That doesn't happen often you know, because I always procrastinate my assignments til late. Like, waaay late, as in, by the submission deadline of Saturday 1 pm, my work would be hot out of the printer at 12:59 pm. But that was when I was at the hostel. This sem, strangely enough, I didn't have an assignment I had to submit on Saturday. We seemed to have submitted all our assignments directly to the lecturers; A method I much preferred.
Anyway, yes I am happy. I will finish studying for the paper tonight and go to bed late, because I woke up at noon again today, despite my efforts to wake up earlier. I am considering going to the movies after my exam tomorrow. I've been calling up my classmates in my panic and they all seemed so easy-breezy telling me instead of studying they had just returned from the movies!
I figured it's about time I catch the Bee Movie. I almost forgot it was even in theatres. Or maybe I should catch Stardust first, since Bee Movie apparently still has a lot of playing times.
Oooh I should stop this and go right back to studying. I will not lose to the lamers!
I AM ON FIYAAA BABY!!
Ta'ra!
Friday, November 16, 2007
Not Dead
No my blog is not dead. My phone line was. Bill issues.
I want to start this post with a big shoutout.
I MISS MY PS2!!!!
I'm sick of studying. I want to go home and indulge in gaming.
I want to play FF12 till dawn, sleep the whole day, wake up at lunch and play it again until dawn the next day. And the cycle continues.
But a bunch of boring stuff is going on right now so I've been studying like a madwoman. For some of you guys, exams have ended but for me it's just starting. Next week. And I have an assignment due on the same day...
Ah, life is not good...
I'm going to proceed to 12 Habits now.
Ta'ra!
I want to start this post with a big shoutout.
I MISS MY PS2!!!!
I'm sick of studying. I want to go home and indulge in gaming.
I want to play FF12 till dawn, sleep the whole day, wake up at lunch and play it again until dawn the next day. And the cycle continues.
But a bunch of boring stuff is going on right now so I've been studying like a madwoman. For some of you guys, exams have ended but for me it's just starting. Next week. And I have an assignment due on the same day...
Ah, life is not good...
I'm going to proceed to 12 Habits now.
Ta'ra!
Monday, November 5, 2007
Defiance
I camped at my living room that night to watch the Laruku concert. Hyde is so hot. I could just marry him on the spot! O_O
Retail therapy is definitely one of my favorite subjects ^_^. Regardless of what they like to buy, all girls enjoy retail therapy. Yesterday I went to an open house of my friend's and when we returned, I finally checked out Pavilion. There's a traffic light coveniently located in front of it. I only did a walk through, just to see what's there and what's coming hehehe.
Ta'ra!
Retail therapy is definitely one of my favorite subjects ^_^. Regardless of what they like to buy, all girls enjoy retail therapy. Yesterday I went to an open house of my friend's and when we returned, I finally checked out Pavilion. There's a traffic light coveniently located in front of it. I only did a walk through, just to see what's there and what's coming hehehe.
Then I went to Lot 10 and decided that, I need new socks.
I like Esprit socks XD. They are so soft and colorful. Well okay, most of them probably look about the same. And I might even buy it just because of the brand, but I'm not kidding about the softness. When you wear socks a lot, your feet gets sensitive to what materials are put on. I used to buy socks from Sox World but I didn't like the material. They look pretty, but they are hard and scrappy, of sorts. And I no longer buy toe socks too. Putting the toes in one by one is so mafan when you're in a hurry.
It's study week and exam starts on the 19th, for me at least. And....right now I'm doing revisions, naturally. But that's the boring bit. The fun bit is...let me start with last Monday.
Last Monday was the last class for this subject with our cangkul lecturer Karuna, The One Everyone Despise (TOED). That's probably the best acronym I've had so far XD. Anyway, there was this Vietnamese girl in our class. She went around asking everyone if they want to help her do the notes on every chapter of the subject. I somehow said okay to co-do the last chapter with Khaye. Even though I'm not really fond of her since she rubbed me the wrong way for suporting TOED when I was rallying signatures to have him replaced.
Yesterday Khaye asked me if I had done my part and I said no. Partly because I'm too lazy to break momentum on Marketing, which I'm currently studying. I was tempted to tell the Viet girl "Is it okay if I don't want to do it because I don't like you?" It sounds bad, but at least it's honest :P.
And besides, sure, she said everyone's gonna do a piece and we'd be helping each other out. But honestly, I don't like other people doing my notes for me. And most of those notes except for two people I'm confident with, will be in broken English! WTF am I supposed to do with them anyway? I especially hate to be told what to do by someone I don't respect, let alone someone I don't like. I have my pride you know.
And yeah, that's the current drama going on in my mundane life. Apart from revisions, I still have two One Piece movie DVDs to watch. So procrastination XD.
Ta'ra!
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Screw Motivation!
I initially wanted to blog about noble things like the Terry Fox Run going on tomorrow and the issues of guys' behaviors from my dad's Dato' Dr. Fadzillah Kamsah's motivation CDs...but screw that!
LARUKU'S CONCERT IS ON CHANNEL V TONIGHT AT 5 AM! ZOMG MUST WATCH MUST WATCH!!!
LARUKU'S CONCERT IS ON CHANNEL V TONIGHT AT 5 AM! ZOMG MUST WATCH MUST WATCH!!!Though if you missed it there's still going to be a repeat at 8pm the same day. Totchi is going to watch the 8pm show. But I couldnt! Why? Let me tell you why!
1. If we're not out by that time, my dad will be hogging the TV watching lame golf shows, 0r
2. We will be out at that time for dinner at my cousin's.
So you see where I stand here? If I don't catch it now when my dad is asleep, I may never get another chance to see Laruku on TV again you got me??
I first saw Hyde performing HELLO on Hitz.TV and although I didn't quite like his song then I was besotted by him instantly! Then I found out he was the vocalist of this band and as the rest as you know it, is history!
And for the record, no other guy could get away with being short and nearly 40*cough* other than HYDE, got it?!
Coz HYDE is HOT!
Even Kuja agrees! He even has his own HYDE insignia!
I've posted this on Yee 'O Lost Souls before. But no harm in reposting it again eh?
Anyway, now I need to find something to do before 5 am. Since it's so quiet and stuff and I already had my nap, I'll study :D. I'll be so sleepy comes tomorrow coz I have to attend this open house of my classmate's hehehe.
But, this thing don't happen often, so I'll be strong!
ZOMG HYDE! ZOMG LARUKU MUST WATCH MUST WATCH!!
Ta'ra.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Perspective
Perspectives can distort a person's point of view. It will strongly affect the person's opinions, turning them into beliefs and eventually becoming a prejudice.
Once a person's perspective is set, nothing you say can change them, unless they get into a serious reality check. What's black is black, what's white is white. No budging. That is why it's important to keep an open mind.
Sometimes I wish I don't have to care so much. But I can't help it. It's only when something bad happens that leaves me frustrated would I stop and wonder if I'm doing too much. Sometimes, yeah, but most of the times I'm just acting on behalf of that person's best interest. If they don't trust me, fine. I shall stop wagging my tail where I am not wanted.
I have never been so pissed and shoved to the side like some unwanted crap being flushed down the toilet. But I accept it as a part of life. These things happen; it's foolish not to anticipate it. You just have to get over it and move on. It's a bitter pill to swallow, but how long are you going to dwell on it anyway?
But as a precaution to myself, in case I start to care too much again, I deleted that person's number from my contact list. If she needs me, she'll contact me. I wasn't even let down easily. I was just pushed aside and left to wonder on my own. But no more. It'll be the cold shoulder from now on. I don't care of their people don't talk to someone in a straight manner. No longer giving hints. If they want something, say it. I'm not picking up hints.
Yes I'm that pissed. I was that crap remember?
They are adults. And as adults we learn to take responsibilities for our own actions.
Good luck to them.
Once a person's perspective is set, nothing you say can change them, unless they get into a serious reality check. What's black is black, what's white is white. No budging. That is why it's important to keep an open mind.
Sometimes I wish I don't have to care so much. But I can't help it. It's only when something bad happens that leaves me frustrated would I stop and wonder if I'm doing too much. Sometimes, yeah, but most of the times I'm just acting on behalf of that person's best interest. If they don't trust me, fine. I shall stop wagging my tail where I am not wanted.
I have never been so pissed and shoved to the side like some unwanted crap being flushed down the toilet. But I accept it as a part of life. These things happen; it's foolish not to anticipate it. You just have to get over it and move on. It's a bitter pill to swallow, but how long are you going to dwell on it anyway?
But as a precaution to myself, in case I start to care too much again, I deleted that person's number from my contact list. If she needs me, she'll contact me. I wasn't even let down easily. I was just pushed aside and left to wonder on my own. But no more. It'll be the cold shoulder from now on. I don't care of their people don't talk to someone in a straight manner. No longer giving hints. If they want something, say it. I'm not picking up hints.
Yes I'm that pissed. I was that crap remember?
They are adults. And as adults we learn to take responsibilities for our own actions.
Good luck to them.
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